Dahhhh...cukup r tu bermasam muka bermuram durja..
takdak pekdahnya.
Skang, ce cari lagi penyelesaian.
See? Bila otak dah tenang, banyak ja jalan penyelesaian yg kamu jumpa kan?
Hihihihi..
M really2 happy 2day.
sebab saya rasa apa yg saya buat ni betul.
Even dah run data, n d relationship btween d variables is insignificant, it doesn't mean that the result is wrong.
The point is, that is d real result dat i got from d real data.
historical data.
n historical data smtimes didn't support certain theories!!
yeah!
got it!
it means that i have to find more evidence to prove it.
hopefully, xdak lagi benda yg jadi penghalang..
amin, amin, aminnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!
Mari bekerja!!!!!!
Menda alah ni takkan mampu wt saya give up! yeahh!!
Posted in ~watever...~ on Wednesday, April 28, 2010 3:53 PM by Nur CahayaGoin' Somewhere Tonite!!!!
Posted in ~The Colourful Life of Mine~ on Wednesday, April 28, 2010 3:23 PM by Nur Cahaya
P mana?
hohohoho...
Dating!
Hahahahhaha...
musti la tak..
M goin to INSPEN with my mom.
ha'ah. Dating ngn mama.
huhuhu..
Ktorg nak try sometg..
Want to try a new business...
Tak tau la bley ka dk.
Tp ntah.
Suara dalam ati ni cakap, saya boleh buat menda ni.
Rugi kalau tak cuba.
Besides, m doin dis bcz of my mom.
I'll do anytg jz to make her happy.
Sebelum ni, sy tak pulak penah cuba berbisnes ni.
Ada la jugak join ASM.
Dah jadi ejen dh pun.
Dah dapat lesen pn.
Tapi sale langsung x bjalan.
Hahahahaha..
Bagus punye budak!
So dis time, i wanna try dis one laa..
Rugi pulak rasa.
Dalam diri dah memang ada darah bisnes.
Kalau tak kembangkan, rasa rugi pulak sia2kan.
Ciwah!
So, cuba2 la kali ni.
Hopefully, ada la rezeki nanti.
Amiiiinnnn!!!
Sementara tak dapat keja lagi,kan.
Bley la cari income sket2.
hihihihi..
Doa2kan yg terbaik untuk sy,k
Daaaaaaaaaaaaa...
hohohoho...
Dating!
Hahahahhaha...
musti la tak..
M goin to INSPEN with my mom.
ha'ah. Dating ngn mama.
huhuhu..
Ktorg nak try sometg..
Want to try a new business...
Tak tau la bley ka dk.
Tp ntah.
Suara dalam ati ni cakap, saya boleh buat menda ni.
Rugi kalau tak cuba.
Besides, m doin dis bcz of my mom.
I'll do anytg jz to make her happy.
Sebelum ni, sy tak pulak penah cuba berbisnes ni.
Ada la jugak join ASM.
Dah jadi ejen dh pun.
Dah dapat lesen pn.
Tapi sale langsung x bjalan.
Hahahahaha..
Bagus punye budak!
So dis time, i wanna try dis one laa..
Rugi pulak rasa.
Dalam diri dah memang ada darah bisnes.
Kalau tak kembangkan, rasa rugi pulak sia2kan.
Ciwah!
So, cuba2 la kali ni.
Hopefully, ada la rezeki nanti.
Amiiiinnnn!!!
Sementara tak dapat keja lagi,kan.
Bley la cari income sket2.
hihihihi..
Doa2kan yg terbaik untuk sy,k
Daaaaaaaaaaaaa...
kuatkan smangat ye sayang...
Posted in ~The Colourful Life of Mine~ on Tuesday, April 27, 2010 7:37 PM by Nur Cahaya
hurmm..
There's no word cn describe my feelings now..
Bkan x usaha..
Sapa yg tau, sapa yg nmpak, dorg tau la cmna sy survive ngn suma ni..
Tesis?
Bkn la pkara bsaq pn..
Tp bila ada lg bnda lain yg bsangkutan, otak ni mcm dah x dapat nk bfungsi.
Teramat letih, sakit sangat kepala.
Xmampu nak pikir apa2 dah.
Ujian?
Jangan ditanya.
Mcm2 dugaan.
Smata2 nk dapat segulung ijazah.
Yg 2 blh tahan lagi...
Tapi xtahan sebak bila tpikir 1 benda..
My family...
Dorg suma ltak harapan tinggi kt sy..
Bg dorg, sy je harapan.. Harapan mama n papa..
Nak bg ada jugak ahli keluarga yg dpt genggam master pulak.
Harapn utk tolong keluarga.
Kecewa dgn diri sniri...
Sbab rasa gagal nk tanggung suma 2..
Terasa lemah smangat nk hbskan suma ni..
Ntah..
Xbleh tahan...
Sapa yg blh tahan air mata bila dlm keadaan ceni.
It's about family.
Can't mention more bout it.
It's jz...
Sy kna bg smangat utk diri snri.
Utk terus berjuang.
Jangan lemah.
Ingat.
Buktikan,aqilah x lemah.
Wlupn sendirian, kena lawan jgk smua ni.
Ni suma dugaan.
Setiap dugaan,ada hkmahnya.
Ingat 2.
Yakin dgn Allah.
Allah uji hambaNya bersebab.
Wipe ur tears, n move on. Look 4ward. B strong..
There's no word cn describe my feelings now..
Bkan x usaha..
Sapa yg tau, sapa yg nmpak, dorg tau la cmna sy survive ngn suma ni..
Tesis?
Bkn la pkara bsaq pn..
Tp bila ada lg bnda lain yg bsangkutan, otak ni mcm dah x dapat nk bfungsi.
Teramat letih, sakit sangat kepala.
Xmampu nak pikir apa2 dah.
Ujian?
Jangan ditanya.
Mcm2 dugaan.
Smata2 nk dapat segulung ijazah.
Yg 2 blh tahan lagi...
Tapi xtahan sebak bila tpikir 1 benda..
My family...
Dorg suma ltak harapan tinggi kt sy..
Bg dorg, sy je harapan.. Harapan mama n papa..
Nak bg ada jugak ahli keluarga yg dpt genggam master pulak.
Harapn utk tolong keluarga.
Kecewa dgn diri sniri...
Sbab rasa gagal nk tanggung suma 2..
Terasa lemah smangat nk hbskan suma ni..
Ntah..
Xbleh tahan...
Sapa yg blh tahan air mata bila dlm keadaan ceni.
It's about family.
Can't mention more bout it.
It's jz...
Sy kna bg smangat utk diri snri.
Utk terus berjuang.
Jangan lemah.
Ingat.
Buktikan,aqilah x lemah.
Wlupn sendirian, kena lawan jgk smua ni.
Ni suma dugaan.
Setiap dugaan,ada hkmahnya.
Ingat 2.
Yakin dgn Allah.
Allah uji hambaNya bersebab.
Wipe ur tears, n move on. Look 4ward. B strong..
gila ke hapa????
Posted in ~The Colourful Life of Mine~ on Sunday, April 25, 2010 7:39 PM by Nur Cahaya
gila ke hapa budak kecik ni?
Aishhh..xbek pulak cakap gila kt diri senirik. huhuhu..
tapi ya lah. mana taknya.
Esok dah viva.
Setelah ditangguh2kan, esok adalah hari keramatnya.
Tapi ada hikmahnya ditangguhkan.
At least ada gk masa nk wt tesis.
dah r kna tukaq tajuk len. Seb bek r sempat amek data kt UUM.
Sampai kna p UUM pulak tu nak cari data.
asik berulang alik.
UiTM?
Owhhh..my lecturer cakap, Datastream kt UiTM ada..tp lombab tahap gaban. So xleh bukak. huhu..
So, esok dah viva. Tp malam ni buleh lagi bergumbira.
Haissshhhh..cari pasal nak nangis esok la ni...
huhuhu..
tamo..tamo...
bukan apa..
kekadang rasa semangat dah luntur dah..
banyak betul dugaan nk siapkan menda alah ni.
Lecturer pulak, kejap cakap mcm tu. Kejap cakap mcm ni.
Kejap membantu. Kejap tak.
Kejap ok. Kejap salahkn sy.
Adehhhh...sy bleh terima dia marah..
Tapi knapa tetiba salahkan sy pulak...
Kan ke sy duk jumpa dia jugak..
kan ke sy duk dapatkan cnsultation dia jugak..
Habis, kenapa tak gtau sy betul2 dulu kalau sy perlu tukar tajuk..
ni dah suruh go on, sy pun go on la..
tetiba jumpa letcrer yg dia suh jumpa, kna wt tajuk len, dia salahkan sy pulak...
tp xpa..
sbb lctrer tu ckp, lctrer sy sniri xpaham.
Sama2 la kita eh..
hohohoho..
Tapi hopefully, dah usaha habis2an dah ni, jgn pulak ada banyak benda nk kena betulkan lagi.
Dah pening nak analyze data.
guna method lain,ok.
tetiba guna method 1 lagi, result macam tipu plak.
Tapi xkan result tu nk tipu kalau data tu sniri data sebenar?
adehhhh...poning eden.
huhuhu..
wokies lah.
xley merepek panjang2.
nak sambung wt keja pulak.
n thanx to you MR.H cz always bg smangat utk habiskan tesis ini.
pasni bwling lg,k. hihihi..
Aishhh..xbek pulak cakap gila kt diri senirik. huhuhu..
tapi ya lah. mana taknya.
Esok dah viva.
Setelah ditangguh2kan, esok adalah hari keramatnya.
Tapi ada hikmahnya ditangguhkan.
At least ada gk masa nk wt tesis.
dah r kna tukaq tajuk len. Seb bek r sempat amek data kt UUM.
Sampai kna p UUM pulak tu nak cari data.
asik berulang alik.
UiTM?
Owhhh..my lecturer cakap, Datastream kt UiTM ada..tp lombab tahap gaban. So xleh bukak. huhu..
So, esok dah viva. Tp malam ni buleh lagi bergumbira.
Haissshhhh..cari pasal nak nangis esok la ni...
huhuhu..
tamo..tamo...
bukan apa..
kekadang rasa semangat dah luntur dah..
banyak betul dugaan nk siapkan menda alah ni.
Lecturer pulak, kejap cakap mcm tu. Kejap cakap mcm ni.
Kejap membantu. Kejap tak.
Kejap ok. Kejap salahkn sy.
Adehhhh...sy bleh terima dia marah..
Tapi knapa tetiba salahkan sy pulak...
Kan ke sy duk jumpa dia jugak..
kan ke sy duk dapatkan cnsultation dia jugak..
Habis, kenapa tak gtau sy betul2 dulu kalau sy perlu tukar tajuk..
ni dah suruh go on, sy pun go on la..
tetiba jumpa letcrer yg dia suh jumpa, kna wt tajuk len, dia salahkan sy pulak...
tp xpa..
sbb lctrer tu ckp, lctrer sy sniri xpaham.
Sama2 la kita eh..
hohohoho..
Tapi hopefully, dah usaha habis2an dah ni, jgn pulak ada banyak benda nk kena betulkan lagi.
Dah pening nak analyze data.
guna method lain,ok.
tetiba guna method 1 lagi, result macam tipu plak.
Tapi xkan result tu nk tipu kalau data tu sniri data sebenar?
adehhhh...poning eden.
huhuhu..
wokies lah.
xley merepek panjang2.
nak sambung wt keja pulak.
n thanx to you MR.H cz always bg smangat utk habiskan tesis ini.
pasni bwling lg,k. hihihi..
How Do I Live by LeAnn Rimes
Posted in ~My Favourite Songs~ on Saturday, April 24, 2010 4:35 AM by Nur Cahaya
How do I,
Get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?
And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?
Get through the night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?
And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?
Today was a fairytale by Taylor Swift
Posted in ~My Favourite Songs~ on Saturday, April 24, 2010 4:33 AM by Nur Cahaya
Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around
Yeah yeah
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around
Yeah yeah
But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
ujian yg betul2 menguji....minda.huhu..
Posted in ~The Colourful Life of Mine~ on Wednesday, April 21, 2010 8:53 AM by Nur Cahaya
ya Allah ya Tuhan..
Penat dan letih x terkata bagaikan sia2...
Smalam nek bas p uitm.
Dr stesen kangar,nek teksi.
Teksi xblh masuk smpai dlm uitm.
So stop kt gate ja.
Dlm panas terik membahang, bjalan la sy dlm 500m smpai la pusat islam..
Tengok gerai mkn penuh sgt, xnk berasak lg.
Rehat ja dlu.
Lps da rehat,da makan, jmpa lctrer.
Hampa dan luluhnya hati bila tpksa tukaq tajuk lain.
My lctrer xmention apa2 pn..
Tetiba ni jmpa lctrer len, kna tkaq blk.
Masuk ni dah kali ke 3 dah tkaq tjuk. Hukhukhuk.. Penat..
Then lpas jmpa, bjalan lg 500m kuaq...n nek bas pulang..
Bsusah payah..
Bkorban..
D night b4, sy dh stay up smpai 4 pagi perah otak pbetul paper.
Huhuhu..sdey la..
Arini nk drive p uum pulak cari data baru. Hpfully sgala penat lelah ni berbaloi..
Amiinn..
Penat dan letih x terkata bagaikan sia2...
Smalam nek bas p uitm.
Dr stesen kangar,nek teksi.
Teksi xblh masuk smpai dlm uitm.
So stop kt gate ja.
Dlm panas terik membahang, bjalan la sy dlm 500m smpai la pusat islam..
Tengok gerai mkn penuh sgt, xnk berasak lg.
Rehat ja dlu.
Lps da rehat,da makan, jmpa lctrer.
Hampa dan luluhnya hati bila tpksa tukaq tajuk lain.
My lctrer xmention apa2 pn..
Tetiba ni jmpa lctrer len, kna tkaq blk.
Masuk ni dah kali ke 3 dah tkaq tjuk. Hukhukhuk.. Penat..
Then lpas jmpa, bjalan lg 500m kuaq...n nek bas pulang..
Bsusah payah..
Bkorban..
D night b4, sy dh stay up smpai 4 pagi perah otak pbetul paper.
Huhuhu..sdey la..
Arini nk drive p uum pulak cari data baru. Hpfully sgala penat lelah ni berbaloi..
Amiinn..
Somebody help meeeeeeeee.....
Posted in ~The Colourful Life of Mine~ on Tuesday, April 20, 2010 1:48 AM by Nur Cahaya
hukhukhuk..
feel like crying over here..
need some oxygen to breath..
need some inspiration to live..
to live with this kind of benda alah.
wawawawawa!!!
even i thought that this is the most challenging paper, i was wrong..
it's not that it isn't challenging. it is..
but, this is a preparation 4 me..
to face this kind of task again if i further my study later.
as a matter of fact, i jz knw that even i'm in degree level now, the paper that i'm taking now is similar to the postmaster's paper.
cz a friend of mine went to UUM library to find samples of the research paper done by degree students.
n she said that the paper is exactly like we have done before in BEL. the simple one.
and when she took another sample done by a postgraduate student, it is exactly like we r workin' on currently.
oh my...
the VIVA is jz around the corner..
i should present on friday.
but then, the day have been postponed to an undecided date. perhaps saturday. but hopefully, it will be not d day before that cz seriously, i'm not ready for it yet.
it is a bad news when i found that my lecturer is not available tomorrow since she's MC till thursday or perhaps till saturday.
hukhukhuk...
what m i doin' rite now?
hurrmmm...
looking at my work...
find anytg to fix.
to add.
or wtever.
at d mean time, watching Cinderella 3: a twist in time, to release this kind of hampes-tahap-gaban-punyer tension.
geee...this kind of fairytale cartoon really makes me feel tranquil n calmmmmmm....
it's already late at night and still, i'm facing my lappy, doin' ntah-hapa2-buatnya-ntah, while trying to find a very2 creative ideas to adapt in my paper.
goshhhhh!!!
crying?
nop. i wont.
this is a test for me.
i can do it.
i trust myself.
humh. jiayoooouuuuuu!!!!!!!
jz remember the arabic term "man jadda wa jada".
go for this final task before u gradddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u can do it,babe! yeahh!!
feel like crying over here..
need some oxygen to breath..
need some inspiration to live..
to live with this kind of benda alah.
wawawawawa!!!
even i thought that this is the most challenging paper, i was wrong..
it's not that it isn't challenging. it is..
but, this is a preparation 4 me..
to face this kind of task again if i further my study later.
as a matter of fact, i jz knw that even i'm in degree level now, the paper that i'm taking now is similar to the postmaster's paper.
cz a friend of mine went to UUM library to find samples of the research paper done by degree students.
n she said that the paper is exactly like we have done before in BEL. the simple one.
and when she took another sample done by a postgraduate student, it is exactly like we r workin' on currently.
oh my...
the VIVA is jz around the corner..
i should present on friday.
but then, the day have been postponed to an undecided date. perhaps saturday. but hopefully, it will be not d day before that cz seriously, i'm not ready for it yet.
it is a bad news when i found that my lecturer is not available tomorrow since she's MC till thursday or perhaps till saturday.
hukhukhuk...
what m i doin' rite now?
hurrmmm...
looking at my work...
find anytg to fix.
to add.
or wtever.
at d mean time, watching Cinderella 3: a twist in time, to release this kind of hampes-tahap-gaban-punyer tension.
geee...this kind of fairytale cartoon really makes me feel tranquil n calmmmmmm....
it's already late at night and still, i'm facing my lappy, doin' ntah-hapa2-buatnya-ntah, while trying to find a very2 creative ideas to adapt in my paper.
goshhhhh!!!
crying?
nop. i wont.
this is a test for me.
i can do it.
i trust myself.
humh. jiayoooouuuuuu!!!!!!!
jz remember the arabic term "man jadda wa jada".
go for this final task before u gradddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u can do it,babe! yeahh!!
Bila Ku Sedari...
Posted in ~watever...~ on Sunday, April 18, 2010 8:12 PM by Nur Cahaya
sambung cepat!
Bila kusedari,diri disayangi..
Langkah kaki ini, semakin berani.
Hahah!
Bukan lagu tu yg dmaksudkan kt sini la..hihihi..
So,apa kena mengena?
Hurrmmm...
Hitung punya hitung,bilang punya bilang, cerakin punya cerakin(slalu jmpa pktaan ni dlm math skola rendah dolu2.hehe..), sedar x sedar, apa yg penah jadi pngalaman pahit dlm hidup, dah pun blalu.
Tapi x la sepenuhnya. Masih ada sisa saki baki lagi.
Saya redha dgn apa yg berlaku.
Wlupn,dgn org yg x berkaitan pun, terasa di sisihkan, tapi xkesah..sebab Allah lebih mengetahui segalanya. Saya cuma manusia biasa, hanya mampu berusaha. Namun, segala hasilnya hanya Allah yg dapat tentukan.
Bila ku sedari...
Saya sedar di mana kelemahan saya. Biarpun cuba dibetulkan, mgkin masih ada jugak yg kekal. Benarlah, Allah menciptakan manusia dgn pelbagai. Punya ciri2 tersendiri. Kun fayakun.
Saya boleh terima kelemahan orang lain. Tapi blm tentu org lain boleh terima kelemahan sy.
Cntohnya, dulu sy pendiam, xpandai senyum, org cakap sy sombong.
Tapi bila sy dh mula belajar bsosial, ada jugak yg xpuas ati. Adesss...
Bila ku sedari...
Dalam 2,3 taun ni, banyak ujian yg sy lalui. Paling getir dlm hidup bila tpaksa melawan diri sndiri. Apa mksudnya? Hanya sy dan org t'tentu, serta Allah saja yg mngetahui.
Kesabaran yg tinggi,cuma tu ja taruhan saya.
Namun, sikap melampaui batas, tetap menang.
Bila difikirkan balik, org xnampak klu kita buat baik 1000 kali pn. Tapi org akan ingat smpai mati kalau sekali kita buat salah.
Dan akhirnya, saya sedar.
Apa pun yg saya buat, ptama skali, sy harus tetapkan niat yg betul. Lillahi ta'ala. Kadang2,kita niat ja mcm tu,tp smpai 1 masa,niat tu blh berubah. Btl x?
Dan sy sedar, sy x perlu berubah utk jadi org lain semata2 nak penuhi impian org lain atau ada dsamping org lain.
Hipokrit cuma akan makan diri sndiri.
Jadi diri sndiri,tu paling terbaik.
Tau knapa sy ckp cm2?
Sbab,most of teenagers yg bcouple,cthnya, dorg xkan jadi diri sndiri. Want 2 b perfect 2 their lover's eyes. They will do anytg. Anything. As long as their lovers stay with them. Am i rite?
Sbab tu org ckp, masa bcinta,kentut pun wangi. Bila dah kawin,sorg jalan dpan,sorg jalan blakang. Hehehe..
From there i've learnt a lot.
When i realised that i'm not who i am b4, i jz let people hurt me, n now i feel the cnsequences, i've made my decision. No more hypocrite. Be urself. Protect urself first but not others. Luv urself first but not others.
N finally, m already 4gave those who hurt me b4. N i'm,too, alredy asked 4 their 4gvness. 2 4give or not, it's up 2 them. M alredy did my part. But i hope, evrytg will be fine since i wish 2 die in peace...m not a perfect person. Smhow, i wish, i cld b sm1 best 4 all of u..
Dahh..habis dh celoteh mlm ni. Nk truskn perjuangan dgn tesis.
Then kena buat kptusan terbaik dlm hidup. Pntu rezeki dah terbuka. Tp xtau nak pilih yg mana. Syukur ke hadrat Illahi.. Allah x pernah lupakn hambaNya tp hambaNYA lah yg sering melupakanNYA...
Bila kusedari,diri disayangi..
Langkah kaki ini, semakin berani.
Hahah!
Bukan lagu tu yg dmaksudkan kt sini la..hihihi..
So,apa kena mengena?
Hurrmmm...
Hitung punya hitung,bilang punya bilang, cerakin punya cerakin(slalu jmpa pktaan ni dlm math skola rendah dolu2.hehe..), sedar x sedar, apa yg penah jadi pngalaman pahit dlm hidup, dah pun blalu.
Tapi x la sepenuhnya. Masih ada sisa saki baki lagi.
Saya redha dgn apa yg berlaku.
Wlupn,dgn org yg x berkaitan pun, terasa di sisihkan, tapi xkesah..sebab Allah lebih mengetahui segalanya. Saya cuma manusia biasa, hanya mampu berusaha. Namun, segala hasilnya hanya Allah yg dapat tentukan.
Bila ku sedari...
Saya sedar di mana kelemahan saya. Biarpun cuba dibetulkan, mgkin masih ada jugak yg kekal. Benarlah, Allah menciptakan manusia dgn pelbagai. Punya ciri2 tersendiri. Kun fayakun.
Saya boleh terima kelemahan orang lain. Tapi blm tentu org lain boleh terima kelemahan sy.
Cntohnya, dulu sy pendiam, xpandai senyum, org cakap sy sombong.
Tapi bila sy dh mula belajar bsosial, ada jugak yg xpuas ati. Adesss...
Bila ku sedari...
Dalam 2,3 taun ni, banyak ujian yg sy lalui. Paling getir dlm hidup bila tpaksa melawan diri sndiri. Apa mksudnya? Hanya sy dan org t'tentu, serta Allah saja yg mngetahui.
Kesabaran yg tinggi,cuma tu ja taruhan saya.
Namun, sikap melampaui batas, tetap menang.
Bila difikirkan balik, org xnampak klu kita buat baik 1000 kali pn. Tapi org akan ingat smpai mati kalau sekali kita buat salah.
Dan akhirnya, saya sedar.
Apa pun yg saya buat, ptama skali, sy harus tetapkan niat yg betul. Lillahi ta'ala. Kadang2,kita niat ja mcm tu,tp smpai 1 masa,niat tu blh berubah. Btl x?
Dan sy sedar, sy x perlu berubah utk jadi org lain semata2 nak penuhi impian org lain atau ada dsamping org lain.
Hipokrit cuma akan makan diri sndiri.
Jadi diri sndiri,tu paling terbaik.
Tau knapa sy ckp cm2?
Sbab,most of teenagers yg bcouple,cthnya, dorg xkan jadi diri sndiri. Want 2 b perfect 2 their lover's eyes. They will do anytg. Anything. As long as their lovers stay with them. Am i rite?
Sbab tu org ckp, masa bcinta,kentut pun wangi. Bila dah kawin,sorg jalan dpan,sorg jalan blakang. Hehehe..
From there i've learnt a lot.
When i realised that i'm not who i am b4, i jz let people hurt me, n now i feel the cnsequences, i've made my decision. No more hypocrite. Be urself. Protect urself first but not others. Luv urself first but not others.
N finally, m already 4gave those who hurt me b4. N i'm,too, alredy asked 4 their 4gvness. 2 4give or not, it's up 2 them. M alredy did my part. But i hope, evrytg will be fine since i wish 2 die in peace...m not a perfect person. Smhow, i wish, i cld b sm1 best 4 all of u..
Dahh..habis dh celoteh mlm ni. Nk truskn perjuangan dgn tesis.
Then kena buat kptusan terbaik dlm hidup. Pntu rezeki dah terbuka. Tp xtau nak pilih yg mana. Syukur ke hadrat Illahi.. Allah x pernah lupakn hambaNya tp hambaNYA lah yg sering melupakanNYA...
Teringat la pulak
Posted in ~watever...~ on Saturday, April 17, 2010 5:23 PM by Nur Cahaya
Skang kan musim final exam.
slalunya time2 ceni, mesti banyak sms masuk.
teka sms apa?
hihihi..
Sms mintak maaf..
Slalunya time2 exam, memang dah jadi adat antar sms mintak maaf kt kawan2.
Mintak maaf.
Perlu ke tunggu time nak exam baru nak mintak maaf?
Kenapa?
Takut kalau x mintak maaf, xbleh jawab exam eh?
Buleh pulak macam tu,kan?
Kenapa xnak mintak maaf sebelum exam? biar berkat apa yg kita belajar?
Haaa...
Btoi dak?
Nak mintak maaf, xperlu nak tunggu ari raya or time nak exam..
Anytime boleh mintak maaf..
Apa laaaaa...
Berkenaan maaf.
For me, if someone datang mintak maaf, saya akan maafkan.
Kenapa xnak maafkan sedangkan org tu dah dengan rendah hatinya dh mintak maaf ngn kita, kita pulak nk ego2 xnk maafkan. mana bley..
Sapa kita yg xnak maafkan org? sedangkan Allah itu Maha Menerima Taubat. Sedangkan Nabi ampunkan ummat.
Kita?
Manusia biasa ja..
Memang kadang2, sy tengok jugak klu org tu mintak maaf, ikhlas ke x.
Nak nilai keikhlasan manusia, memang la tak boleh.
Tapi kekadang boleh nampak.
Contohnya, ungkapan maaf tu sniri susah sangat nk disebut.
then, bila dah mintak maaf, ulaaaaanng balik kesalahan yg sama.
So, ape kes??
Tapi saya x kesah..
Lebih baik memaafkan.
Bukan ke tangan yg memberi lebih mulia dari tangan yg menerima?
Tak rugi apa pun klu kita maafakan org.
Hati pun tenang.
Kan?
So, xyah la tunggu masa2 tertentu baru nak mintak maaf.
Ringankan mulut tu..kalau dah salah, mengaku je dan mintak maaf..
peace, no war. hihihihi..
tudlidooooooooo!!!
slalunya time2 ceni, mesti banyak sms masuk.
teka sms apa?
hihihi..
Sms mintak maaf..
Slalunya time2 exam, memang dah jadi adat antar sms mintak maaf kt kawan2.
Mintak maaf.
Perlu ke tunggu time nak exam baru nak mintak maaf?
Kenapa?
Takut kalau x mintak maaf, xbleh jawab exam eh?
Buleh pulak macam tu,kan?
Kenapa xnak mintak maaf sebelum exam? biar berkat apa yg kita belajar?
Haaa...
Btoi dak?
Nak mintak maaf, xperlu nak tunggu ari raya or time nak exam..
Anytime boleh mintak maaf..
Apa laaaaa...
Berkenaan maaf.
For me, if someone datang mintak maaf, saya akan maafkan.
Kenapa xnak maafkan sedangkan org tu dah dengan rendah hatinya dh mintak maaf ngn kita, kita pulak nk ego2 xnk maafkan. mana bley..
Sapa kita yg xnak maafkan org? sedangkan Allah itu Maha Menerima Taubat. Sedangkan Nabi ampunkan ummat.
Kita?
Manusia biasa ja..
Memang kadang2, sy tengok jugak klu org tu mintak maaf, ikhlas ke x.
Nak nilai keikhlasan manusia, memang la tak boleh.
Tapi kekadang boleh nampak.
Contohnya, ungkapan maaf tu sniri susah sangat nk disebut.
then, bila dah mintak maaf, ulaaaaanng balik kesalahan yg sama.
So, ape kes??
Tapi saya x kesah..
Lebih baik memaafkan.
Bukan ke tangan yg memberi lebih mulia dari tangan yg menerima?
Tak rugi apa pun klu kita maafakan org.
Hati pun tenang.
Kan?
So, xyah la tunggu masa2 tertentu baru nak mintak maaf.
Ringankan mulut tu..kalau dah salah, mengaku je dan mintak maaf..
peace, no war. hihihihi..
tudlidooooooooo!!!
When You Believe by Mariah Carey n Whitney Houston
Posted in ~My Favourite Songs~ on Friday, April 16, 2010 5:57 PM by Nur Cahaya
Many nights we prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could
Chorus:
There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear, when pray so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here, my heart so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I'd never thought I'd say
Chorus:
They don't always happen when you ask, ah
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see you way clear through the rain
A small but still resilient voice
Says help is very near.
Chorus (add libbed):
There can be miracles (miracles) when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
somehow you will
now you will
You will when you believe
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could
Chorus:
There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
In this time of fear, when pray so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here, my heart so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I'd never thought I'd say
Chorus:
They don't always happen when you ask, ah
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see you way clear through the rain
A small but still resilient voice
Says help is very near.
Chorus (add libbed):
There can be miracles (miracles) when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
somehow you will
now you will
You will when you believe
The mEmoRies thAt wiLL lAsT FoRevEr in My HeArT...
Posted in ~The Colourful Life of Mine~ on Friday, April 16, 2010 11:28 AM by Nur Cahaya
Yesterday was my last day as a practical student in Takaful IKHLAS Sdn Bhd.
As a newbies there, i've learnt a lot especially in dealings with others, no matter customers, agents, agency managers, staffs, managers, AVPs, VPs, or SVPs.
Semua tu saya dah berdepan.
Alhamdulillah, berkat diri yang banyak cakap ni, dapat sesuaikan diri dengan semua orang. Dapat eratkan silaturrahim. Xdengaq la pulak sesapa cakap sy ni sombong kt situ. huhuhu..
Stay kt department Family Agency Sales, alhamdulillah, boleh sesuaikan diri. Banyak kenagan pahit dan manis dah lalui.
Kena marah? Mesti la penah..hihihi..Suka duka semua ada lah.
so smalam bila last day, sebak nak tinggal semua orang. I luv them so much. Duk kt family agency sales, rasa pun dah macam family dah. huhuhu..
BAnyak tunjuk ajar dari dorg. Paling suka, en.Azuan klu bagi tunjuk ajar apa2, suka bagi contoh untuk sy paham. hihihi..thanx ya!
Bukan kerja rutin ja yg sy slalu buat. Kekadang ronda2 gk kt department lain, cari ilmu. cewah! blajar laaa..apa dorg buat..apa function dorg...mcm2 lah.
Sebab tu komunikasi tu penting..
Deal dengan agency managers. Owhh..yg ni paling banyak deal lah. Memandangkan FAS banyak buat event, so agency managers mmg slalu terlibat n sy pulak slalu kna contact dorang semua.
Bila dah slalu contact, dorang pun rajin datang office, kenal la. Alhamdulillah, dari situ membuka peluang kt sy untuk kenal lebih ramai orang. Tak macam student2 kt department lain. Dorang terhad kenal staff2 kt situ ja. Tapi saya, saya boleh kenal selain dari staff.
Tak dapat nak senaraikan semua orang yg sy kenal kt sini. Ramai sangat. hihihi..
Tapi, cukuplah kalau dorang semua tau, sy terlalu hargai semua yg dorang ajar, semua kenangan kt Takaful IKHLAS. I really appreciate it much!
Semalam last day, rezeki cukup murah. Alhamdulillah..Thanx to en.Adnan, en.Azhar, en. Azuan, n Kak Rini, sebab lunch skali untuk farewell sy. Thanx..tp trasa terkureng sebab en.Shah xdapat join skali. Bos pun xdak. hj Sam n hj WRS.
n my very thanx to dis AM(can't be mention. hoho..), sebab usaha jugak tunai janji nk wt farewell party utk sy. Banyak sangat yg sy terima sepanjang kt sana..
Too much memories..sweet memories..
Ari ni dh tak keja. Rasa rindu plak dgn dorg suma. Hopefully, dorg suma akan sentiasa ceria2 selalu. Pasni, masuk student practical baru, mesti havoc lg department tu. hihihi..
So, 1 of 2 tasks dah setel. skang tinggal research paper to complete. Then, grad!!!! Alhamdulillah..
Spanjang kt situ jugak, pintu rezeki terbuka luas.
Banyak terima peluang dan tawaran. Sampai tak tau nak pilih mana 1..huhu..
Yang penting, sy kena buat solat istikharah, mintak petunjuk dari Allah, mana 1 pilihan yang terbaik. Terima kasih tak terhingga untuk semua.
Keep in touch, and panjang umur, kita jumpa lagi...
As a newbies there, i've learnt a lot especially in dealings with others, no matter customers, agents, agency managers, staffs, managers, AVPs, VPs, or SVPs.
Semua tu saya dah berdepan.
Alhamdulillah, berkat diri yang banyak cakap ni, dapat sesuaikan diri dengan semua orang. Dapat eratkan silaturrahim. Xdengaq la pulak sesapa cakap sy ni sombong kt situ. huhuhu..
Stay kt department Family Agency Sales, alhamdulillah, boleh sesuaikan diri. Banyak kenagan pahit dan manis dah lalui.
Kena marah? Mesti la penah..hihihi..Suka duka semua ada lah.
so smalam bila last day, sebak nak tinggal semua orang. I luv them so much. Duk kt family agency sales, rasa pun dah macam family dah. huhuhu..
BAnyak tunjuk ajar dari dorg. Paling suka, en.Azuan klu bagi tunjuk ajar apa2, suka bagi contoh untuk sy paham. hihihi..thanx ya!
Bukan kerja rutin ja yg sy slalu buat. Kekadang ronda2 gk kt department lain, cari ilmu. cewah! blajar laaa..apa dorg buat..apa function dorg...mcm2 lah.
Sebab tu komunikasi tu penting..
Deal dengan agency managers. Owhh..yg ni paling banyak deal lah. Memandangkan FAS banyak buat event, so agency managers mmg slalu terlibat n sy pulak slalu kna contact dorang semua.
Bila dah slalu contact, dorang pun rajin datang office, kenal la. Alhamdulillah, dari situ membuka peluang kt sy untuk kenal lebih ramai orang. Tak macam student2 kt department lain. Dorang terhad kenal staff2 kt situ ja. Tapi saya, saya boleh kenal selain dari staff.
Tak dapat nak senaraikan semua orang yg sy kenal kt sini. Ramai sangat. hihihi..
Tapi, cukuplah kalau dorang semua tau, sy terlalu hargai semua yg dorang ajar, semua kenangan kt Takaful IKHLAS. I really appreciate it much!
Semalam last day, rezeki cukup murah. Alhamdulillah..Thanx to en.Adnan, en.Azhar, en. Azuan, n Kak Rini, sebab lunch skali untuk farewell sy. Thanx..tp trasa terkureng sebab en.Shah xdapat join skali. Bos pun xdak. hj Sam n hj WRS.
n my very thanx to dis AM(can't be mention. hoho..), sebab usaha jugak tunai janji nk wt farewell party utk sy. Banyak sangat yg sy terima sepanjang kt sana..
Too much memories..sweet memories..
Ari ni dh tak keja. Rasa rindu plak dgn dorg suma. Hopefully, dorg suma akan sentiasa ceria2 selalu. Pasni, masuk student practical baru, mesti havoc lg department tu. hihihi..
So, 1 of 2 tasks dah setel. skang tinggal research paper to complete. Then, grad!!!! Alhamdulillah..
Spanjang kt situ jugak, pintu rezeki terbuka luas.
Banyak terima peluang dan tawaran. Sampai tak tau nak pilih mana 1..huhu..
Yang penting, sy kena buat solat istikharah, mintak petunjuk dari Allah, mana 1 pilihan yang terbaik. Terima kasih tak terhingga untuk semua.
Keep in touch, and panjang umur, kita jumpa lagi...
last minute jugak yg dia cari...
Posted in ~watever...~ on Sunday, April 11, 2010 8:14 PM by Nur Cahaya
haishh..
Tu la. Sblum ni asik bsenang lenang. Ngorat2 encik mood,langsung xdlayan. Hampes punye cik mood.kutuk sama dia.
Ni dah hujung2, time ni la baru nk balas ngorat org. Haishh..
Tp xpa. Kna terima la. Daripada dia xkunjung tiba lgsung.
Smalam p uum,cari data kt datastream.
Tengah best2 kumpul data,tetiba blackout.
Bengang siot. Dh bnyak dapat dh ni. Tp smpat save sikit je baru. Adess!
Rasa buang masa drive jejauh tp hasil dpt ciput.
Dsbabkan tu, mlm smalam trus balik bangi..
Dalam bas plak xleh tdo sbab sejuk.
Sampai umah pkl 6 pagi. Lpas solat,trus tdo. Penat sngat.
Pkul 11, trus p ukm plak. Stay kt ukm smpai pkl 6. Fuhhh! Tapi berbaloi2..
Even xdpt bkak datastream sbb arini weekend, tapi cari jugak dgn cara manual.
Smangat bkobar2,dgn ptolongan yati utk analyse data guna spss, wahhhhh! Alhamdulillah.. Tma kasih x t'hingga kt yati sbb sudi tolong.dah la ari slasa dia ada paper. Tp xpa. Kira revision utk dia jgk la sbb dia amek kos ekonometrik. Ada kaitan gk la. Hoho..
So,skang tinggal nk analyse data.then kna prepare utk VIVA 19hb ni. Waaaaa!! Takotttt!! Hopefully lctrer xbnyk soal. Huhuhu..
Jgn bg lctrer yg xknal sudahh.. Heh. Wokies!
Gile ah bley wt rileks lg.
Xpa2..cool..jgn glabah..
Kerja,kerja jgk.
Study,study gk.
Yg penting slasa ni nk mein bwlg dgn someone. Weehooo!! Da lama xmain. Bley la lpas geram sblm nk mngadap viva nnt. Huhu..
Tu la. Sblum ni asik bsenang lenang. Ngorat2 encik mood,langsung xdlayan. Hampes punye cik mood.kutuk sama dia.
Ni dah hujung2, time ni la baru nk balas ngorat org. Haishh..
Tp xpa. Kna terima la. Daripada dia xkunjung tiba lgsung.
Smalam p uum,cari data kt datastream.
Tengah best2 kumpul data,tetiba blackout.
Bengang siot. Dh bnyak dapat dh ni. Tp smpat save sikit je baru. Adess!
Rasa buang masa drive jejauh tp hasil dpt ciput.
Dsbabkan tu, mlm smalam trus balik bangi..
Dalam bas plak xleh tdo sbab sejuk.
Sampai umah pkl 6 pagi. Lpas solat,trus tdo. Penat sngat.
Pkul 11, trus p ukm plak. Stay kt ukm smpai pkl 6. Fuhhh! Tapi berbaloi2..
Even xdpt bkak datastream sbb arini weekend, tapi cari jugak dgn cara manual.
Smangat bkobar2,dgn ptolongan yati utk analyse data guna spss, wahhhhh! Alhamdulillah.. Tma kasih x t'hingga kt yati sbb sudi tolong.dah la ari slasa dia ada paper. Tp xpa. Kira revision utk dia jgk la sbb dia amek kos ekonometrik. Ada kaitan gk la. Hoho..
So,skang tinggal nk analyse data.then kna prepare utk VIVA 19hb ni. Waaaaa!! Takotttt!! Hopefully lctrer xbnyk soal. Huhuhu..
Jgn bg lctrer yg xknal sudahh.. Heh. Wokies!
Gile ah bley wt rileks lg.
Xpa2..cool..jgn glabah..
Kerja,kerja jgk.
Study,study gk.
Yg penting slasa ni nk mein bwlg dgn someone. Weehooo!! Da lama xmain. Bley la lpas geram sblm nk mngadap viva nnt. Huhu..
Benar Ku MencintaiMU..
Posted in ~watever...~ on Saturday, April 10, 2010 7:20 PM by Nur Cahaya
Kalau kita tanya semua orang,
Kamu sayang Allah tak?
Mesti jawapannya ya,kan?
Tapi sejauh mana sayang tu pada Allah?
even i always ask to myself.
if i do luv Allah, how deep is my love to HIM?
Kalau sekadar kita cakap, kita dh buat semua suruhan Allah, tu tandanya kita sayang Allah, rasa2, cukup ke?
Mesti la tak,kan?
Sejauh mana sangat yang kita ikut suruhan Allah..
Dunia sekarang makin mencabar.
Iman manusia makin lemah.
Susah amat nak cari manusia yg betul2 teguh imannya.
Kt mana2 pun ada ja dugaan.
Dan sebagai manusia biasa, yg lemah imannya, pasti dah kalah dengan godaan duniawi,kan.
Tengok ja la skang..
Konsert dah macam cendawan..
Program2 realiti TV bercambah!
Honestly speaking, sy benci program realiti TV.
Tak pernah setia ikut macam fans realiti TV kt luaq sana tu.
Ape ke pekdahnya ntah dk tengok benda2 cmtu.
Nk menolong industri hiburan tanah air ke atau nak tolong manusia ni jadi lalai n ramai2 masuk neraka?
Sy cakap yg betul..
Benar ke kamu cintakan Allah?
Apa yang kamu buat sebagai bukti?
Pernah kamu cakap dengan diri sendiri, tanya soalan yg sama?
Bila kita betul2 cintakan seseorang, apa pun lita sanggup buat.
Demi cintaku padamu la katakan.
Tapi dengan Allah?
Solat sempurna tak?
Sejauh mana sempurnanya solat tu?
Memang r x tinggal.
Tp wlupun tak tinggal, korang pasti ke tak solat tu dah sempurna?
Maksud saya, niat dalam hati tu. Bermula dari ambil wuduk sampai selesai solat.
Bersih tak hati tu?
Bersedia ke tak nak menyembah Allah?
HUrmm..
itu baru solat.
Amalan2 lain?
Banyakkkkk..
Sy sebut kt sini bukan sesaja..
Tapi sebagai peringatan untuk diri saya jugak..
Saya pun kena usaha betulkan diri..
cuba jadi yg sebaik mungkin.
Baik budi ja xcukup..
yg penting iman didada.
Cukup resah bila rasa kekadang terlalai.
Kekadang rasa jauh dengan Allah.
Takut sangat kalau2 Allah pulak jauhkan diri dengan saya.
Astaghfirullahal'azim..
Ampunkan segala dosa dan kelalaian hambaMU ini, ya Allah..
Benar kumencintaiMU..
Namun, kesenangan duniawi mudah saja menjadi ujian hati ni..
melalaikan diri..
Mudah2an ada cahaya hidayah untuk saya, dan untuk semua.
Moga pintu hati sentiasa terbuka dan cerah dengan petunjuk dariNYA..
Moga diri ini sempat menemuiNYA dengan hati yg suci tanpa cacat cela..
Moga pintu taubat sentiasa terbuka agar taubat kita sentiasa diterima olehNYA....
Kamu sayang Allah tak?
Mesti jawapannya ya,kan?
Tapi sejauh mana sayang tu pada Allah?
even i always ask to myself.
if i do luv Allah, how deep is my love to HIM?
Kalau sekadar kita cakap, kita dh buat semua suruhan Allah, tu tandanya kita sayang Allah, rasa2, cukup ke?
Mesti la tak,kan?
Sejauh mana sangat yang kita ikut suruhan Allah..
Dunia sekarang makin mencabar.
Iman manusia makin lemah.
Susah amat nak cari manusia yg betul2 teguh imannya.
Kt mana2 pun ada ja dugaan.
Dan sebagai manusia biasa, yg lemah imannya, pasti dah kalah dengan godaan duniawi,kan.
Tengok ja la skang..
Konsert dah macam cendawan..
Program2 realiti TV bercambah!
Honestly speaking, sy benci program realiti TV.
Tak pernah setia ikut macam fans realiti TV kt luaq sana tu.
Ape ke pekdahnya ntah dk tengok benda2 cmtu.
Nk menolong industri hiburan tanah air ke atau nak tolong manusia ni jadi lalai n ramai2 masuk neraka?
Sy cakap yg betul..
Benar ke kamu cintakan Allah?
Apa yang kamu buat sebagai bukti?
Pernah kamu cakap dengan diri sendiri, tanya soalan yg sama?
Bila kita betul2 cintakan seseorang, apa pun lita sanggup buat.
Demi cintaku padamu la katakan.
Tapi dengan Allah?
Solat sempurna tak?
Sejauh mana sempurnanya solat tu?
Memang r x tinggal.
Tp wlupun tak tinggal, korang pasti ke tak solat tu dah sempurna?
Maksud saya, niat dalam hati tu. Bermula dari ambil wuduk sampai selesai solat.
Bersih tak hati tu?
Bersedia ke tak nak menyembah Allah?
HUrmm..
itu baru solat.
Amalan2 lain?
Banyakkkkk..
Sy sebut kt sini bukan sesaja..
Tapi sebagai peringatan untuk diri saya jugak..
Saya pun kena usaha betulkan diri..
cuba jadi yg sebaik mungkin.
Baik budi ja xcukup..
yg penting iman didada.
Cukup resah bila rasa kekadang terlalai.
Kekadang rasa jauh dengan Allah.
Takut sangat kalau2 Allah pulak jauhkan diri dengan saya.
Astaghfirullahal'azim..
Ampunkan segala dosa dan kelalaian hambaMU ini, ya Allah..
Benar kumencintaiMU..
Namun, kesenangan duniawi mudah saja menjadi ujian hati ni..
melalaikan diri..
Mudah2an ada cahaya hidayah untuk saya, dan untuk semua.
Moga pintu hati sentiasa terbuka dan cerah dengan petunjuk dariNYA..
Moga diri ini sempat menemuiNYA dengan hati yg suci tanpa cacat cela..
Moga pintu taubat sentiasa terbuka agar taubat kita sentiasa diterima olehNYA....
Hari2 terakhir...
Posted in ~The Colourful Life of Mine~ on Friday, April 9, 2010 1:41 PM by Nur Cahaya
Perhh! Tajuk x bley blah! hahaha..
Apa kaitan?
Hurmm.. hari2 terakhir untuk bergelar student.
Adesss!!
Otak dah blurrrrrrrr teramat dah ni.
Blank trus.
Bila tengok paper, mata tengoookkkkkk ja.
Fikiran tah ke mana hala.
Bukan merewang pikir sapa2 ke apa.
Tapi merewang ke alam maya kot.
Rasa macam terbang ke udara.
Huhu..
Serius r..
Rasa nak nangis ni.....
Call mmbr2 tanya dorg pnya paper cena, dorg pun lbh kurang sy jugak.
Kalau yg tak guna software untuk run data, best la.
Ni yang nak kena guna software ni.
Dah r kelas SPSS dulu pun sat ja.
Nak kata xp, p ja.
Tapi mmg masa tu, pihak univ pun dah xbleh wt apa sbb masa terhad.
Aiyoooo..
Esok kena p library uum lagi.
Macam besa, pepagi dh nak kena kidnap keta tu. Kalau lambat kang, langsung xleh p mana.
Nak nek moto p uum? Perhhhh!! tak bleh..tak bleh..
Dengan lesen xdak, nk merempit jejauh plak.
Kat cni pun brani bawak dekat2 loqstaq ja.
Kalau kt Arau dulu pun, skali ja penah bawak moto balik umah.
So esok da plan ngn Syirah, pepagi lagi musti p uum.
Bleh balik awal. Tu pun bgantung r kalau xramai org guna PC datastream tu.
Pastu esok malam trus balik Bangi, ahad p UKM pulak.
Hukhukhuk..
Hari2 terakhir ni xdak istilah rehat untuk saya..
Wawawawawa!!
Kekadang rasa dah tension sgt, rasa xmo buat ja benda alah ni.
Tapi pikir, benda ni ja penentu nak grad esok, ku gagahkan jua diri ini..
huhu..
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tolooooooooooonnnnnngggggggggggg!!!!!!!!
cepat la habisssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tobat pasni kalau sambung, sy lebih rela pecah otak amek paper biasa dari wat research. huhuhu...
Apa kaitan?
Hurmm.. hari2 terakhir untuk bergelar student.
Adesss!!
Otak dah blurrrrrrrr teramat dah ni.
Blank trus.
Bila tengok paper, mata tengoookkkkkk ja.
Fikiran tah ke mana hala.
Bukan merewang pikir sapa2 ke apa.
Tapi merewang ke alam maya kot.
Rasa macam terbang ke udara.
Huhu..
Serius r..
Rasa nak nangis ni.....
Call mmbr2 tanya dorg pnya paper cena, dorg pun lbh kurang sy jugak.
Kalau yg tak guna software untuk run data, best la.
Ni yang nak kena guna software ni.
Dah r kelas SPSS dulu pun sat ja.
Nak kata xp, p ja.
Tapi mmg masa tu, pihak univ pun dah xbleh wt apa sbb masa terhad.
Aiyoooo..
Esok kena p library uum lagi.
Macam besa, pepagi dh nak kena kidnap keta tu. Kalau lambat kang, langsung xleh p mana.
Nak nek moto p uum? Perhhhh!! tak bleh..tak bleh..
Dengan lesen xdak, nk merempit jejauh plak.
Kat cni pun brani bawak dekat2 loqstaq ja.
Kalau kt Arau dulu pun, skali ja penah bawak moto balik umah.
So esok da plan ngn Syirah, pepagi lagi musti p uum.
Bleh balik awal. Tu pun bgantung r kalau xramai org guna PC datastream tu.
Pastu esok malam trus balik Bangi, ahad p UKM pulak.
Hukhukhuk..
Hari2 terakhir ni xdak istilah rehat untuk saya..
Wawawawawa!!
Kekadang rasa dah tension sgt, rasa xmo buat ja benda alah ni.
Tapi pikir, benda ni ja penentu nak grad esok, ku gagahkan jua diri ini..
huhu..
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tolooooooooooonnnnnngggggggggggg!!!!!!!!
cepat la habisssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
tobat pasni kalau sambung, sy lebih rela pecah otak amek paper biasa dari wat research. huhuhu...
what next?
Posted in ~The Colourful Life of Mine~ on Tuesday, April 6, 2010 9:46 PM by Nur Cahaya
hohoho..
pejam celik, minggu depan da habis praktikal.
rasa sedih pun ada jugak sbb dah rasa rapat ngn dorg suma.
Banyak pengalaman yg ditimba.
Tapi hidup perlu diteruskan. ciwah!
Ib pulak dah habis tadi.
xdak la dah kawan nk lepas perasaan, lepak2 lepas opis hour. huhuhu..
n Alhamdulillah, makin hari, terasa makin ada cahaya dalm hidup.
Mybe ni la hikmahnya untuk kesabaran saya selama ni.
Allah menguji bukan saja2.
Ada hikmahnya.
Andai bersabar, maka besarlah ganjarannya.
Alhamdulillah, makin lama, sy dah makin lupa perkara silam.
My dear beshfwen really happy sebab sy x lagi tensen2 n sdey2 da.
thanx to her 4 always b wit me when i need someone to b by my side.
so skang juz fokus kt tesis.
Aduhhh..pendek sangat masa yg tinggal.
harap2 sempat n dapat la markah yg bagos2 sket. huhu..
risau dowhh..
kang time present kang, sesuka ati ja cakap.
slalunya mmg r klu group presentation, mmbr2 asik suh sy present.
thanx to them jugak la cz bila dorg paksa sy, asik sy yg kna present, at least kelebihan present tu ada gk sy dapat. hahah!
tapi xbest bila kalau sy yg bnyk cakap, lctrer asik tanya sy bila dorg xdpt jwb soklan. so nanti viva, present sorg2, sapa pulak nk tolong bekap sy? adesss..
then, pikir pasal cari kerja pulak.
haiiisshhh.. cmne la nasib..
hopefully ada la rezeki..
insya Allah..
n last but not least, hurrrrmmmm jz want to say m really2 happy rite now..
pengalaman silam mengajar erti hidup..cewah! macam lirik nasyid la plak..hahah!
tp betul la..tma kasih utk sesiapa yg pnah bagi pengalaman dan pengajaran dlm hidup sy.
masehhh..
pejam celik, minggu depan da habis praktikal.
rasa sedih pun ada jugak sbb dah rasa rapat ngn dorg suma.
Banyak pengalaman yg ditimba.
Tapi hidup perlu diteruskan. ciwah!
Ib pulak dah habis tadi.
xdak la dah kawan nk lepas perasaan, lepak2 lepas opis hour. huhuhu..
n Alhamdulillah, makin hari, terasa makin ada cahaya dalm hidup.
Mybe ni la hikmahnya untuk kesabaran saya selama ni.
Allah menguji bukan saja2.
Ada hikmahnya.
Andai bersabar, maka besarlah ganjarannya.
Alhamdulillah, makin lama, sy dah makin lupa perkara silam.
My dear beshfwen really happy sebab sy x lagi tensen2 n sdey2 da.
thanx to her 4 always b wit me when i need someone to b by my side.
so skang juz fokus kt tesis.
Aduhhh..pendek sangat masa yg tinggal.
harap2 sempat n dapat la markah yg bagos2 sket. huhu..
risau dowhh..
kang time present kang, sesuka ati ja cakap.
slalunya mmg r klu group presentation, mmbr2 asik suh sy present.
thanx to them jugak la cz bila dorg paksa sy, asik sy yg kna present, at least kelebihan present tu ada gk sy dapat. hahah!
tapi xbest bila kalau sy yg bnyk cakap, lctrer asik tanya sy bila dorg xdpt jwb soklan. so nanti viva, present sorg2, sapa pulak nk tolong bekap sy? adesss..
then, pikir pasal cari kerja pulak.
haiiisshhh.. cmne la nasib..
hopefully ada la rezeki..
insya Allah..
n last but not least, hurrrrmmmm jz want to say m really2 happy rite now..
pengalaman silam mengajar erti hidup..cewah! macam lirik nasyid la plak..hahah!
tp betul la..tma kasih utk sesiapa yg pnah bagi pengalaman dan pengajaran dlm hidup sy.
masehhh..
Bahagia dalam derita..
Posted in ~The Colourful Life of Mine~ on Sunday, April 4, 2010 1:42 AM by Nur Cahaya
1) pity of my dear besfren..
dia sedang melalui apa yg saya lalui dulu..
mencari bahagia dalam derita.
sayang, tapi diri sendiri menderita.
nak buat satu kputusan pun susah.
nak lepas, rasa sayang sangat.
tapi sampai bila nk mengalah dan biarkan diri disakiti dan x dihargai..??
so sy juz dpt bagi nasihat mana yg termampu..
sy xnak la kawan sy rasa apa yg sy rasa..
sakit sangat..
tambah pulak time nak exam. memang menguji gila laaa..
hopefully dia kuat. Xdapat nak kidnap dia p jejalan hilangkan tensen. Cadang2 kalau dia balik nanti nak p Langkawi lagi mcm aritu. wt keja gila. P pagi, ronda satu langkawi, p pemandangan indah, jerit kt c2. hahah! pastu balik. wakakaka!!
2) hurrrmmm... terlalu sukar utk sy lupakan segalanya
tapi alhamdulillah..Allah dah berikan jalan keluar..
masih ada cahaya untuk sinari hidup ni. Ciiiwah!!
hahahaha!!
tapi dalam sy rasa bahagia, masih lg menderita.
bila nak dapat siap tesis ni????
wawawawawawa!!!
xpa. yg penting tesis ni.
adesss!!!
dia sedang melalui apa yg saya lalui dulu..
mencari bahagia dalam derita.
sayang, tapi diri sendiri menderita.
nak buat satu kputusan pun susah.
nak lepas, rasa sayang sangat.
tapi sampai bila nk mengalah dan biarkan diri disakiti dan x dihargai..??
so sy juz dpt bagi nasihat mana yg termampu..
sy xnak la kawan sy rasa apa yg sy rasa..
sakit sangat..
tambah pulak time nak exam. memang menguji gila laaa..
hopefully dia kuat. Xdapat nak kidnap dia p jejalan hilangkan tensen. Cadang2 kalau dia balik nanti nak p Langkawi lagi mcm aritu. wt keja gila. P pagi, ronda satu langkawi, p pemandangan indah, jerit kt c2. hahah! pastu balik. wakakaka!!
2) hurrrmmm... terlalu sukar utk sy lupakan segalanya
tapi alhamdulillah..Allah dah berikan jalan keluar..
masih ada cahaya untuk sinari hidup ni. Ciiiwah!!
hahahaha!!
tapi dalam sy rasa bahagia, masih lg menderita.
bila nak dapat siap tesis ni????
wawawawawawa!!!
xpa. yg penting tesis ni.
adesss!!!
bukan semudah memetik jari..
Posted in ~The Colourful Life of Mine~ on Thursday, April 1, 2010 5:54 AM by Nur Cahaya
ya Allah..smalam pnat smpai xigt dunia. Tambah pulak kna hujan, sakit kpala. Smpai umah,solat maghrib,bdebushhh! Trus tdo.hoho..then pagi ni bgn awl la..
Hurmm apa yg x smudah memetik jari tu eh?
It's about my feelgs. Ciwah!
I jz want 2 say,
it's not easy 4 me 2 say i luv u, but it's easier 2 say, i do like u.
Wakaka! Siot ja.
Mana brani,beb! Nk main sbut i luv u sesuka hati..
Sbab bila dh terkena, msti la kta bwaspada,kan. So cmtu la sy..hehe..
Kpada siapa ayat itu dtujukan?
Hurmm manusia! Haha!
Hurmm apa yg x smudah memetik jari tu eh?
It's about my feelgs. Ciwah!
I jz want 2 say,
it's not easy 4 me 2 say i luv u, but it's easier 2 say, i do like u.
Wakaka! Siot ja.
Mana brani,beb! Nk main sbut i luv u sesuka hati..
Sbab bila dh terkena, msti la kta bwaspada,kan. So cmtu la sy..hehe..
Kpada siapa ayat itu dtujukan?
Hurmm manusia! Haha!
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